Archive for October, 2008

Unintelligible

Posted in Uncategorized on October 25, 2008 by jbasedow4

This will probably sound like the ramblings of a mad man- that’s ok it’s more for me than you anyways. If you have any questions you can just email me. My life this year has felt a little out of control. Full of many things I like to do, but also many I ought to do, regardless of the fact that I have zero passion for them. My life has become full to the point that there are very few decisions I make each unless it’s whether or not to show up at the places I’m committed to being at. It can be draining.

For some reason or another, two of my favorite movies ever are Spiderman 1 & 2. I know I’m not a hero by any stretch of the imagination, but something about Peter Parker echoes in me. In the 2nd movie there’s a point where he wrestled with the idea that by taking up the Spiderman name, he has lost his ability to direct his own life. “Am I not supposed to have what I want?” he asks to an empty room, because he’s spiderman, there’s no one there him. A pretty legit question. One I ask a lot [again, bear with me, I know I’m not a hero, I just wish I was].

It’s only after he talks with his aunt that he realizes what HE has to do. He has something unique inside of him, something that gives hope to everyone around him. “Even though sometimes we have to be steady and give up the thing we want the most, even our dreams,” is the word is Aunt May gives him. It’s hard at first but he finds peace there since he knows it’s right. And, since it’s a movie, he ends up with what he wants anyways, rock on.

I’ve for sure given up quite a bit, who knows what God will bring, though? I definitely don’t live in a movie. But if there’s one thing I pull from Spiderman it’s “stay steady.”