Archive for November, 2008

Compare People and Miscellaneous Thoughts

Posted in Uncategorized on November 29, 2008 by jbasedow4

So I’ve officially removed the application “Compare People” from my facebook profile.  I’ll admit, there were certain elements of it that were always humbling, but it was intriguing to know where I stood.  I even kept it after I saw some of my rankings heading downward week after week.  Rankings such as: “who studies harder” or “who would I rather marry”.  But the FINAL straw came today when I lost my first place ranking on “who would win in a fight” and “who has better hair.”  That’s it, I can’t take it anymore.  I don’t want to know what people think of me.  Lie to my face, please.  I don’t care if you don’t think I’m a good person, or you think I’m a bad student, but please, don’t insult my hair, or bet against me in a fight.  Phew, that’s off my chest.

What now?

Right now, I’m listening to John Mayer’s “In Repair,” a song that Philip Daniel Waggoner recommended to me not so long ago.  For those of you that don’t know Phil that well, he LOVES John Mayer.  I’ve never seen someone with so many different screen-saver pictures of one person.  Anyways, I love the song.  It starts off, “Too many shadows in my room/Too many hours in this midnight/Too many corners in my mind/Too much to do to set my heart right.”  [I’ll post the rest of the lyrics below].  Since this is the internet and I’m still not really good at sharing my feelings, I’m going to be a little vague.  But I’ve been losing sleep over some stuff recently, and I guess not even just recently; the last year or two, really.  The anxiety that can pull you from your sleep suddenly with a shot of adrenaline at 3 in the morning and keep you awake for an hour.  The creeping sense of despair that can paralyze you in the face of uncertainty. 

My favorite lyric from this song is “And now I’m walking in the park/And all of the birds they dance below me/Maybe when things turn green again/It will be good to say you know me.”  I don’t know, it gives me hope.  When it seems like life is crashing in all around, it’s hard to enjoy the beauty of the little things, but I really think that God put them there for just those situations.  Life is hard, but there’s beauty all around, even in the birds dancing on the ground.  It gives us hope, lets us know that God has a plan for us.  That tomorrow is worth working for.  Give the song a listen.  If not for me, then do it for Phil. 

“In Repair” by John Mayer

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it’s taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh it’s taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

And now i’m walking in the park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

Oh it’s taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
I am in repair

Oh, and these are some pictures from my life recently.  The really cold looking one is from up in Rist Canyon.  On a particularly crazy day, I drove up there to chill out and this sweet frost just overtook everything.  The other two pictures are from our annual Christmas tree cutting excursion today.  Good times with the fam.  The landscape picture is an example of the beauty that soothes my soul.  Good night!

Let’s blog, everyone’s doing it.

Posted in Uncategorized on November 18, 2008 by jbasedow4

So apparently everyone I know is beginning to blog, which is cool, but I’m actually not sure what I think of the fact that people might actually read this (except you, Jen, I think our minds operate on the same wavelength). But I should probably keep writing anyways, so that’s what I’ll do.

I just got back from Kansas City Sunday for auditions for the band for the Campus Crusade Denver Christmas Conference. It was fun, I met some great people, was stretched musically at times and just overall got a break from my crazy weekends. I’m excited to see what happens with the band, because I think it’d be fun. More than that, I feel like DCC has been a great thing for me in the past and I would love to be a part of helping bless the next CRU generation. Plus, it’ll be a blessing to get to work with some great musicians as I try to develop the gifts God has given me.

But here’s what really stuck with me after this weekend: whether I get to be in this band, I am so blessed here in Fort Collins. Now, I already knew this. Really, I did. But this weekend, we got to play with some of the best musicians the Campus Crusades of the Great Plains has to offer and I left thinking, “how on earth did we end up with the band we have here in Fort Collins?” it’s almost unfair. God loves it when His people join together to praise Him, and He provides what is needed to do that, often times more than just enough. And so we see many people step forward who become more than what they should be simply because God has chosen to use them to lead His people in worship and they have responded, I would count myself as one of those.

But what’s happening here is BIGGER than that. God is bringing some amazing people here who have hearts that say, “God first, not me, with everything I will shout forth His praise.” These people have been huge in my life, they’ve spoken to me musically, in some ways giving me training that I could never afford. And they’ve spoke to my heart about worship. Whether or not I make this band for DCC, I am more resolved than ever to pursue these gifts that God has given to me. Not because I want glory, and not because I don’t think people will worship with less than the best music. No, there is something about bringing your BEST to God. Saying, “God, I humbly thank you for what You have given me, I feel Your joy in using this gift and so now I will cherish it, refine it, pour what I am into it and hope that when I bring it back to You, it puts a smile on my Father’s face.” I think that is the future for worship in Fort Collins. People finding where it is that God has called them and doing that with a fire that is undeniable. How great will the Church shine when she gives all that she is for the glory of her King?

I feel blessed that I get to pursue the musical element, but this is so much bigger than that. Find where God’s gifted you, it might mean taking a terrifying step of faith, but do it with all your heart. And do it well so that when others see it they see the glory of a heart that is redeemed.

We sing songs together because the unite us and focus us on the prize, but that is just a place where our lives of worship intersect and we take joy in being together as the bride of Christ. Make your life a life worship, give it to God, and let Him make it bigger than you have it in you to be. Only you can know in your heart what that is, but the call will be there, sometimes soft, sometimes loud. Follow it.